Id like to try to explain something thats been on my mind for yearsin a way that some of you might understand. Im an exhibitionist. But not out of a simple urge to show myself off. Rather, out of a deep, complex longing for contrast and liberation. In my everyday life, Im controlled, proper, always the sensible one. I wear the right clothes, say the right things, and live up to expectations. But at night, when Im alone and open my camera app, I transform. I become something elsea woman who consciously humiliates herself, who deliberately devalues herself in order to lose herself in the process.