I've always loved sex. I love dominating a man, but what I really like is when my lover pushes past my dominant streak and just takes me hard, like pulling my hair, throwing me around, etc. I always wanted a relationship but never seemed to meet the right guy - so for the last 20 years or so I've done a LOT of fucking around instead. About 7 years ago I meet my husband and fell madly in love. About 2 years ago I find out he is really turned on by the idea of me fucking other men. This is tough because this goes against everything I thought marriage was supposed to be and what I thought and found hot about about men jealously guarding their territory. And it's hard for me because I've had no experience knowing how to have only one lover, since I've always wanted new, random dick. At first I resented him a little for not being man enough to guard me and was mad for him screwing up my idea of marriage. Then I was pissed because he made it impossible for me to use my vows as an excuse for not fucking around. So I blamed him the first few times I fucked around. But the third time I gave him what he said he wanted and didn't clean myself after fucking someone else before I came home, and I played his "fantasy" that is what I did (he didn't know it was real). He was so happy and ravenous eating my dirty pussy while I told him about my "fake" lover . .. and I did love him cleaning my pussy dirty and crusty with another man's cum. I've never felt so dirty and loved at the same time. It was amazing finally giving in. I've played fantasy with him 9 times now, but without him knowing he is actually doing it for real. I just can't bring myself to tell him for real, because I'm kind of scared about how that might change our relationship and I get super hot knowing I'm cheating. He said his one rule is always telling him all the details of my lovers if I ever take one, but he doesn't know what makes me the hottest is the secrecy. I feel like shit. I feel like a slut. And we're both so happy too. What do you think - should I tell him? More about me - I really enjoy my feet pleasured, I love men's cum, the harder you can fuck me the better. I really like having my pussy licked while I pee. I really love anal play- Mary